What's life like the past decade
2010
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July 2010 |
It's my fourth year in the BPO, which meant I had been spending 3 Christmases and 3 New Years at work. It was around this time when I discovered eyeliners and the wonders they could do to my eyes. Hoop earrings were also my thing, along with mini-dresses, denim jeans, fitted shirts, hoodies, Converse sneakers, and sling bags. Life wasn't that hard, and I'd been listening to Avril, Linkin' Park and Backstreet Boys on my phone, thru the downloaded Youtube videos I converted to mp3s.
2011
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May or June, 2011 |
Nothing much has changed, except for the hair, which was longer and rebonded. I gave up the hoop earrings in favor of stud earrings because I thought they made me look more feminine. Though I was still a fan of Converse sneakers, denim jeans, and shirt, I grabbed my empire tops, denim skirts, and ballet flats more often. I could no longer remember what was my reference for this style, I only remember how I loved the way I looked in that ensemble. This was also the year when I got fond of red lipsticks and nail polish in bold colors.
2012
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2012 |
My health was starting to deteriorate during this year. My eyelids began to droop and my vision sometimes doubled, which I thought was due to stress and the toxicity of my job. There were times when I couldn't swallow my food and my speech were slurred. I had to be on medical leave for 6 weeks, and a doctor later told me that I have multiple sclerosis, a condition that was showcased in one of my favorite novels and deemed to be fatal. Another doctor said it was GBS. Later that year, I was rushed to the emergency and admitted to the Intensive Care Unit, and was told that my final diagnosis was myasthenia gravis.
2013
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December, 2013 |
2014
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August, 2014 |
2015
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MIBF, September, 2015 |
2016
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PGH, June 2016 |
After I launched three books, I finally underwent thymectomy in June. It's a surgical procedure where thymoma is removed, the alleged cause of my excessive antibodies that results in MG symptoms (this is how I understood it, please ask a medical professional for verified information). October of this year, my second self-published book, If I Knew Then is released in the market.
2017

I regarded this year as my Year of Great Photos. 2017 was basically a happy year - I was glowing, clad in skater dresses and pastel-colored accessories. Red lipsticks became my thing again, though I completely gave up on denim jeans and Converse sneakers as they proved to be an inconvenience and a lot of work to a myasthenia gravis patient. Lifebooks printed another book under my name, May Forever Nga Ba? I also wrote a short story which became part of an anthology launched on October that year.
2018

This is the year when I got in to the corporate world. I was able to get a 9-5 job that's too considerate of my condition. That same year I launched Right Where You Left Me, two days after my birthday. That was also the year when I started eating healthier food. By the last quarter, things got a little bitter, as I had to leave the organization I helped established.
2019
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December 2019 |
Not much happened this year (but here's the summary for you). I had no books to launch, or even a huge project to execute. Basically, I got sidetracked, my worries and useless anxieties took me over. To be very honest, I had no idea what happened to me. Maybe I was too stressed. Or disillusioned. Or I got demotivated. I even got to a point where I wondered if I was still surrounded by the right people.
But on top of this all, I am grateful. I am grateful for the fact that I was obviously guided by God. It was so hard for me to understand what He was trying to tell me, and to know and accept the things I must let go so I could move forward. He was there all along, surrounding me with the right people in moments when I ran out of hope and didn't know what to do. I was never alone.
Writing this entry has helped me come up with how I am going to approach the new year, since I want to spend it spontaneously. As I went back and reviewed the things I did, I am also reminded of where I got the strength to make those things happen (thank God for everything!). Maybe I should go back to where I started. What were my motivations to write the books I've written? What made me look forward to dress up and look put together? What was my ultimate reason for waking up in the morning (or at night, from 2010 to 2012 since I was on graveyard shift). Going back to basics must be the right thing to do, don't you think?
xo
But on top of this all, I am grateful. I am grateful for the fact that I was obviously guided by God. It was so hard for me to understand what He was trying to tell me, and to know and accept the things I must let go so I could move forward. He was there all along, surrounding me with the right people in moments when I ran out of hope and didn't know what to do. I was never alone.
Writing this entry has helped me come up with how I am going to approach the new year, since I want to spend it spontaneously. As I went back and reviewed the things I did, I am also reminded of where I got the strength to make those things happen (thank God for everything!). Maybe I should go back to where I started. What were my motivations to write the books I've written? What made me look forward to dress up and look put together? What was my ultimate reason for waking up in the morning (or at night, from 2010 to 2012 since I was on graveyard shift). Going back to basics must be the right thing to do, don't you think?
xo
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